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Saturday, July 02, 2005

Jealousy 3

Continue… in case u dunnoe whatis happening here..go to here to read it 1st..

14/1/05
"everything shud ask ur self...why i lost myself..why i lost my self??ask ur heart.... last time i study hard cos i got aim.. i wan to giv u a good and better life in future..but now... no more chance no more future, no more study, no more enjoy and no more life..tat all i can say..i wun regret wat i do, cos wat i do just wil cos i no more future..but... i beg u think ur self too.. bcos of ur few sms or few words cos a person no mmore future, r u doing the right thing or not..but i know now i no more chance to return the mood.... everything, anything happen just settle like tat...i not blame u, just to let u know how big ur influence for me.. u know stil got one more way to make me find back myself.. right??if u feel tat can make me find back myself pls sms me.. i tell u i also dun wan i lost myself..every night drops tear alone in the room so suffer.,,,really suffer...i wan study but i force my self not to study,, really suffer..really suffer..really.."

15/1/05
"finally u scold me up..i dun care!! i told them i study cos of u!! now u no more wat for i study! my parent also dun care, wat for u scold shame on me? u stil not enough power to scold me tat cos u say no more chance to b my gf!!tis is wat u say to me!!!! now i already scew up my study! b cos of love! wat make me like tis?? think ur self.. i nvr do anything wrong, but wat u scold me?? bcos of u i scew up my study!!now u turn back and scold me??haaha wat a funny jokes!!i know 1 ting only i scew up my study bcos some one dun wan me, i no more aim to study!! tat all i know!!!!!ok, u ask me wat way can make me study back on da sms?? ok, i tell u.. but i sure more than 100% u wun do tat, and 100% u know wat is the ways.. forgive me and giv me last chance!!i know imposible for u to do tat... i know.. tat y i no sms u at all.. i lost my self, i lost my life and lost my study cos of tat reason... i can tell u, tat night i was in Rumah Sakit Hassan Sadikin.. u can check indon hospital at bandung..all my fren here now all asking wat happen, all trying to help me solve tis problems but no one can help me, only got 2 ppl can help me.. one is u and one is myself...KNOW??

16/1/05
"i know i wrong but u stil remeber wat u told me in the sms, u say tat i no more chance at all, tat mean wat?> tat mean i no more chance to be wit u...i dunno wat shud i do now.. 2moro exam, i dun think i wil go.. cos u no more care me, i ez jlous then u try not to make me jlous la..u r the one who make me jlous.... y? cos i treat u as my gf tat y i jlous y u so fren wit tat guy, so happy wit tat guy...tat night i just follow wat u tell me at msn.. when u sms me i just tell the truth from wat u say in the msn. tat all.......at last, u wan to giv me chance or not dependss on u.. for me for sure i wan u giv me one more chance.. but i dun think u will giv.. right??giv me last chance or not.. as u wish..."

16/1/05
"anything we talk sure will end up..why?? cos i wan u be my gf.. only tat...we end up our conversation.... i think u nothing false.. cos u got hak to choose ur bf, give or not give me chance... so i think everytimes all my false...me stuborn?? u same o... cos u also stuborn dun wan give me chance...good to hear u taking course... i think by the time u already slowly forget me... why?? cos when a person goes to college or go out, sure meet lot people.. i think may be tat time u can find ur bf....if u feel happy wit ur bf then i also wish u happy and last forever... but for me i will always waiting for u... and love u forever... i try to change myself bcos of u.. i wan study doctor.. i wan do lot of thing tat can benefit me so i can give u a real good life in future... but i cant.. may be some one in my mind keep saying u only can change after u give me chance...but i know if i say like tat also useless.. so i think i nothing to say lor.. tat all i can say.. i just wan u be my gf..I LOVE U>>>>>> FOREVER>>>>>>>EVER!!!"


6/2/05

“Harlow my honey, I’m aredi back to Malaysia. How are you? Miss u so much…muacks bye…!”

8/2/05


“ My hand can’t move anymore..!”

“I cross the road, a motor bang me n I fall down, then a car go pass by. Now my whole left hand can’t move, and no reaction aredi”

“Bandage la, by cement. 2day I go to hospital to unwrap the bandage. My hand stil can’t move. I become handicap aredi, very suffer now!”

“Doctor say it take bout 2 to 3 month to recover n need to do physiotheraphy. My parents dunnoe bout this, I’m stay alone outside”

“ I dun want let them know till my hand is recover. I no more study cos u dun1 me already, I no more chance already…”

“u forget what happen? But my mind always got that case occurs. Everynite my fren say I sleep also can talk. They always ask me who is milly that everynite I say out the name!”

“ Just because of u, I can change whatever thing that u ask me to change..i just hope u give me last chance, can? If I make u angry again, I will automatic go off from u!”

“Then pls forget me! I just hope to be ur 1st n last bf, tat’s all..before that, I study very hard just wanna give u a better life in future , but now, I think no need study hard…no point to study …no more future..what for study?!!”

“I just wan to let u know..u are always in my heart forever n ever. No more other ppl can replace…I love u forever ever..muacks.. bye!”